haha...just realised haven't been much writing abt life...life as in living...

ok lar. still living. i hate work still. but at least now can listen to radio...

the circle of my close friends is changing.
not that the other friend not impt... just that at this period of time closer to this few friends than the others... aiya also good. i like my close friends now. all 21. all girls. all close to my heart. all know me. =)

been FAT. for some time. sad de leh. never in my life have i been so fat. sian...den now i more image conscious le...cannot go out ugly...unless really no choice. like when go work lor. then also realised maybe my self esteem a bit too on the high side. have been told that i'm only ok; average. but also got ppl say i not bad, can be pretty if i duh duh duh...
haiz. all because of going to places that ppl are all superficial...

only look at looks only. ---haha, i like this sentence, like mirror reflection.

mirror me. haiz. inner self rotting. not exactly lar. lack substance maybe. packaging my outer myself more but not nuturing my inner self...sounds like some book tt i read before. hmmm. yah. really need to reflect on myself sometimes. but guess now i can better go back to the more 'nice' self. =) good lar in a way... i'd never want to be fake, i know i'm just rebellious. but also containing the original untainted niceness or goodness that will never wash me away to an extreme that no one can recognise me, like wash out paint faded into the wall.

hmmm.. i'm glad. silent happiness is always good.

anyway ytd celebrat joy's b'day. actually also nuthing much... in summary i did all i can as a good fren le.
1) ate dinner with her at long john's
2) treat her to dessert (tiramisu with ice cream) at cartel
3) walk with her to somewhere near her home...not to the doorstep, but hor!!!
sing "happie birthday" in all diff versions: suprano, hip-hop/rap, christian, chinese, with "fireworks" sounds, jazz...blah blah blah lar...wah lao so tired lor.

enjoy girl! 21st leh! hae-happie, hae-happie, hae-happie, happi burfday (joy)
u've got the big heart and got the act cute factor, and the cats, and d'funk!