exhange for my happiness.
Dienstag, Februar 28, 2006
these things might not be important, but it may really be good therapy for me.
And also, well...since i gonna trade my youth for it, haha...much be something good lar.
still duno what am i trying to hint?
prezzies?
for the queen. hahaha.
no lar...for the slave working still.
not in order of preference, but well just take one u can afford!
i'm not responsible for bankrupcy here.
1. adidas apple green top + black netted shoebag
2. anna sui's secret wish or paris hilton
3. a long necklace...preferably black and u can prob find tt at hula and co.
4. my sneakers!
5. watch...i really like those in the metro department store (diesel, puma or if dkny is ok to u)...no swatch pls!
6. sports bag...or a shopping tote with d'funk
7. my tees... can i have a zara or mng voucher? i wan my bambi tee or the mod ballet doggie tee...
8. paul and joe or stila item... make up set mah... nvm lar.
9. my 1 yr contact lenses supply
10. hair makeover! a dye into choc brown or cappuccino brown?okies...S.T.O.P!!! greedy, greedy yuhan...
any queries...mail me. to ur own creativity ppl.
anyway, this yr i also dun wan to like hoo-haa CELEBRATE my birthday...
instead, wanna enjoy time with ppl.
i celebrate god for creating me.
and so gonna spend time with the willing woman who gave birth to me and tolerate my nonsense until now. hees.
i appreciate as much god created me, he placed all these ppl to be with me at all different times to mould me to who i am.
so not honouring myself this yr.
pls make yaselves available k?
i like cakes still...=P
silently thinking.
never liked someone so much before.
cy also says. and plus who and who...
"you fallen too deep"
learn to give more than take
learn to love more than hate and be childish.
learn to be thinking and missing someone every moment.
learn to be anticipating a surprise
learn to appreciate a person's good points
--- was saying such a long list of why i like him till i think its too much for cy to take it
and at the same time accept his bad points
learn his interests and mine....the songs we both appreciate or criticise abt each other's fav.
learn to be patient
learn respect oneself and him
i alr moved out of myself.
am i too much an angel?
or restrictive?
or irritating?
or untimly?
or not to ur taste?
everything happens for a reason.
at least i know i can like a guy until i lose interest in all others.
i appreciate lifehouse,
i appreciate dashboard confessionals,
i appreciate fort minor,
and i, appreciate u.
What am I hanging on to.
Samstag, Februar 25, 2006
insanity.
Today's talk:
I really like him a lot.
He thinks I am restricting him and wants to lead his own life.
Really impossible?
He wants me to forget him.
I can't.
I can't.
I can't.
What did I do? To make you turn away?
And rather I walk away?
I already don't want a wadsoever answer.
I want to be hanging by a moment with u.
I want to be there.
made a collage... of me n u. it looks fabulous. but it won't matter to u.
remember me.
on days u feel good, on days u feel bad, on days u feel lonely, on days u feel tired, on days u facing anything, even that.
until the day u find 'her'.
not quite right
Mittwoch, Februar 22, 2006
cHaRoN posted at 11:01 AM
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haiz...stupid. or is it dumb?
is it I duno what I want or you duno what you want?
this is supposed to be the 100th entry and should be writing abt something joyous or wadeva.
whole night thinking abt u when i was in the club... man, wad was I thinking?
am I expecting something in return? yes/no.
friend, fling, gf
when asking my fren what kind of r/s is this... 2 words: ai4 mei4 (not open and confusing r/s)
pushing too hard?
why did God let u pass me by then.
crap.
listening to my frens...
kissing
Mittwoch, Februar 15, 2006
one article I was reading on the straits times after lunch... amazingly reading newspapers now seem to be one HUGE entertainment while at work.
yea...it's on kissing. and much to my surprise...
they give reasons why ppl kiss, like what it is in us...animals also do it, that it is like the of babies sucking their mum's breast,
or why women make their lips look redder and fuller, so as to look like animals in the heat and attract the men to kiss them...
and how it started with the eskinmos sniffing the cheeks...
that mouth kissing...or exchange of saliva started with european explorers
that the first kiss was recorded in india 1500 yrs ago...
the last one though...was what truly fascinated me...
that men who kissed their wives before work live longer, get into lesser car accidents and earn higher incomes than married men who don't.Interesting rite?
Start smooching...
v-day msn nicks
Sonntag, Februar 12, 2006
cHaRoN posted at 10:59 PM
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1. i ought to
give up because i dun wan you to
give in.
2. if there's still a tear in ur eye, i'll wipe it for you
3. run ahead of me, so i can follow behind you. follow thru'...
4. you're beautiful, and i duno what to do...'coz i'll never be with you
and this...
5. That I love you
I have loved you all alongAnd I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never goStop breathing
if I don't see you anymore
valentines' day coming...rushing
Mittwoch, Februar 08, 2006
man...
I started to count down 12 days ago.
Had a bet with pam whether this guy and that guy would ask us out.
Planning on clubbing if no one asks us out.
Asked Joy if she wanted to go out: Yes b'cum no...
Asked cy ytd: Have someone special liao... (happie for her)
Someone asked me ytd what am I doing? : No plans yet
o-k. face it. worse case scenerio:
Pam goes out with ...
Cy alr being asked a mth ago.
Joy refuses to go out with me.
The one I expected din do anything... (and that's expected btw...)
Eat dinner and watch tv at home? Then sleep arh?
Not that I'm not prepared for that...
It's just... gonna kill my spirits.
ok. decided man. not gonna let the big word
- SINGLEaffect me.
Gonna go get some fresh flowers for myself and friends. oh...I gotta do it fast. It's gonna get expensive by the day.... Chocolates? Ya...some of that lovely stuff to indulge in. Maybe go sing karaokae?
Aiya... ren shuan bu ru tian shuan.
Still kinda excited to see what'll happen.
After all, my b'day is 2 weeks away from v'day.
Maybe that sucks now.
This is gonna be so hard but must try.
Don't eat FRIED FOODlow on Sugar...7 words could end my eating luxuries....*sobZ*
haha...all the more must try harder before my tighs bloat like balloons...
and my stomach stick out like a belly...
and my butt can't fit the mrt seat...
54kg...
that day's dream.
Montag, Februar 06, 2006
haha...forgot I needed to blog this down.
Anyway, I dreamt of my ex and it goes like this:
I was on my way to visit a relative/friend at the hospitial...then when I was at the lift, I saw this girl wearing the army suit. As she was leaving, she kind of like turned and looked at me. Hur? Fine. I left the lift lobby and walked to the ward. While I was walking past this other ward, looks like a laboratory with many babies, but just that there was quite a few patients instead.... and I think I saw my ex! and that amry suit girl beside him. Oh...so that's his current gf...but doesn't exactly look like the one with him now in real life. Then later I went to visit my relative le, came out and as I passed by again, I was pulled by the arm by that girl to a corner.... She just told me she din love him anymore, and duno how to tell him she wants to leave him. "Erm... okies..." was what I said. She also said he was suffering from some terminal illness or wad.
So...anyway, another day. I came for visitation again. He saw me! I tried to leave asap, but he got his parents to drag him down to another floor lift lobby, which I was at...weird, 'coz it had looked kind of like some hotel lift lobby... Then he passed me some magazine which was probably confidential or wad... then as he left, the security guard appeared. Probably thot he was trying to leave the hospital or the mag was really sth confidential... he yelled at me to stop. And I was lost. Then the guard pulled out his gun, and gave a shot. I died.
-End of dream-
All characters if of resemblance is purely coincidential...
to ex: and I'm not trying to curse anyone here or mean anything....
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