first u say then u want, then u say u will.
...
jenny, u're killing me.
haiz. actually sometimes to be devoted to something or someone is much harder than we thot it is. thou it shouldn't be a reason for deviation... but this kind of contradiction or dilemna sometimes can drive me crazy.
i admit i'm not born a mind-over-heart person. in fact, i'm prefer to judge things from an emotion perspective.
i used to say that i can devote to my bf with all my heart, not slant to the right nor left.
thou i had crushes but it was just thots in a blue moon.
now i met a bf whom i really want to be with.
yet now i found someone whom i equally 'like'... and that i been trying to rid my mind of. but everytime i see him. the feeling comes. but of coz it goes.
argh...
and besides school work is already piling me down. there's this really irritating project and i really hate it and can't wait for it to end. i can't cope with my core modules... and also it's the start of all extra cirriculum activities and gosh. No time for frens.
today i just felt so depressed i wanna break down.
i really hope for this bad feeling to disperse.
charon