sigh. at this point of time... where recess week is about to end. qns just come into my head... wad have i been doing man?!

read a few of my fren's blog. dearie's, cy, sk... seems tt everyone has a good story abt their life to tell... and why the hell i only have to say abt love? goodness.


sigh. i need to live more normally?? crap leh... especially when
1. i haven't been studying...
2. having fun at bridge
3. downloading all the chinese romantic songs i can get
4. and of 'coz thinking abt him until i am so lost
5. happily decorating my room

dunno. looking at this list. should it have been the best i can get? out of life tt is.

actually. almost the entire list are things i (would) like to do. but maybe... intensity is different.

but i'm still unhappy. never in this life, yuhan has felt so damn supressed. and to think i wasn't brave enough in the past to face life... it's going to be worse from now on.

a dreamer. i wish to live.

simplicity. we can do so many small lil' things in life tt will be forgotten. but they make u happy. and... i wan to cut short so many things; i dunno how not to knock into walls.

love. conviction. choice to be faithful.
i guess such things just blow my mind off.

i guess looking at such. i have nowhere to stand in the world.

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oh my gosh... just as i was going to finish writing this blog... the pri sch from opp my hall is playing tt malay song for children's day!!!

and made me rem the two really cute kids i saw tt day tt were sooo interested to play with me.

there's where i belong.
bring me an angel. i'll wash his feet.

ytd watched this movie with shan and bryan. thot it will be okay... or at most not bad. but it was wonderful. superb.

while trying to remember the quotes in this story, almost can fill up a pageful.

should watch. must watch.

it's about a gurl on her wedding day... very much in love with her fiance... sees a florist decorating the venue. and fell in love with her at first sight.

They met up and ate at rach’s house. They saw each other at the supermarket... (Rach with Hector and Luce (the florist) with her fren). They went on a date together to a soccer match where Luce taught Rach to scream real loud. And when Rach told her her fav flower was lilies and asked Luce wad it means... Luce looked her in the eye, "it means... I dare you to love me."

and how later, they verified feelings for each other. but yet the husband realised, and he was so super nice... he was to the florist's den to buy flowers when they were making out. she was devastated. and ran away. she chased after her. and then the florist, luce, asked her,

"if this is wad u really wan, u can tell me, i will leave. and disappear from ur sight."

"so what is it you wan den?"

"I want you..."

wah u know at that instance, they cried. and i almost did. courage to admit, where did tt come from?

but then they decided to part.... and so rachel (the gurl with the husabnd), requested,

"Don't forget me."

"I won't remember anything else."

then they parted. life just didn't go on from there. when she went home, and the husband hugged her in bed. she couldn't sleep. luce couldn't work in the shop. her mum asked Luce,

"is there someone you like?"

"no, " "really. mum u should get a date."

"do u like him?"

"mum, it's this gurl." "and yes, i like her."

and for Luce, tt's how she told her mum abt it. and her mum accepted.

As for rachel, she finally mustered courage to tell her husabnd, hector. he's a lovely man, lemme tell u! he just finally told her on her birthday... when she told him tt she won't walk away from him... he said,

"I just want you to be happy. And when I know I cannot be ur source of happiness anymore. I'm standing in your way, and I need to move away. 'coz now your love for her, has become an unstoppable force."

this movie is super touching. ended up, both parents knew abt their love and fetched rachel to chase after luce, who just wanted to go for a long holiday. she heard that she was around, 'coz while they were on the phone, she heard this guy singing the song, "imagine me and you" -- tt heineken song... and after tt he passed by... and she jumped up to the top of the car, in the traffic jam crowd... and shouted for luce. and finally. luce appeared.

they ran towards each other. eyes filled with joy. the kind u know tt u are satisfied with wadeva u have. they kissed. that's their happy ending.

where's mine?

"sometimes u dunno what is about to happen. but u take the plunge anyway."

i start to wonder... can everything wrong turn out right in the end?

listening to leehom-di yi ge zhao chen...

zhe shi ai, wo men de ai, hao bu que ding, que hao shi zai...

wo hui xuan ze fang qi ni. shi yin wei wo tai ai ni.

today was ur well wishes. for the end of this.
" if you find someone better, u should go for him."
thanks.

when i saw her, 2 yrs of it. and he says it's not he doesn't love her.
if u love her, all tt u've been doing. jia you ba.

2 yrs. how can it be compared to tt attraction at instantaneous?

i want to wait. but no. fate shall bring us ard? seriously i dun believe. 'coz i know u still love her. the reason why u dun give up. will keep u going. and ur dad, he's really a nice man u dun wan to disappoint.

like the song of lovestory..." my love shall just vanish into the air."

and thank you for loving me there and then. 'coz no matter wad it was... ur faithfulness is sth i like. but sth i can't grasp.

jia you jia you k... ni na me ai tai, yi ding yao ba ta liu xia. =)

i'm so dead.

i guess i like him so much and so that much tt's either meagre to u but like all the world to me.

haiz. i'm fighting to do her right.
i'm fighting to hold back but i'm so lousy.
i don't deserve this.
she don't deserve this.
he...

i'm waiting for something beyond. should i have that kind of faith tt can kill me either way?

don't u know i already can't help falling in love with... u.

gone with the wind. blow me away.

wad do u do when a wrong decision is made? i'm listening to fix you by coldplay. lights will guide u home...

sometimes i myself am getting confused. is it all i wanted, and all i ever would need?

dearie says, liking is a feeling tt can be brushed away.

lost in a world completely.

oblivious to consequences. why am i still encouraging?

one day it will come to pass.

shall i just let it go?

ytd was a wonderful day. not many wonderful days as such.

ur seh, ur ben ben de lian, the blush, the da nan ren, the give in, the knowledge, the wanting to talk to me all the time...

don't u realise we will cause each other to fall?

i'm lost for words.