Dun anyhow think. Life become so extremely terrible now that these few weeks are just slogging myself out to study. Probably there has never been a time in my life where i worked so hard for something before. Not even when I was trying to get into special stream, not even when I was trying to retake my english to prove my language abilities.
But then hor... I was anticipating attachment, holidays. So things like tt should come first. Haiz. Duno lar. Feel so lost. Don't even know the results will become like what. At first thought I surely can make it this semester. Aiya. Too proud again. Pride always comes before a fall---that famous quote.
But still want to work hard, still want to push lar. Don't push now then no chance to push liao. Future is such a vague thing to me. But the more I uncover the picture, the more afraid I am; afraid I will not get what I expect.
Crap. Then somemore Qiying is gone. Fujuan staying at hostel. Since when did such distance gaps become such barriers to friendships?
Lah lah lah. Hope I can get the attachment in a-bio. If cannot then like that lor.
I need to find You again. Only when I meet your heart will I see the clearest of what I ought to see....
Will I?
My reluctance sometimes just drives me nuts.
charon