Anyway, was feeling kinda blessed...the week before. My angels in disguises... asked me out. =) all my friends tt I was close with in the past (I do keep in contact with them btw). Really glad that u guys actually remembered and want to celebrate my b'day with me...awwww...
yep yep. so was actually hoping I'll get a surprise from someone...anyone...esp if mr j gives me a surprise...I'll be overjoyed! Was hoping someone wants to wait for me at buona vista mrt before or after work...but no one did eventually...=(
Stayed up the nite on the 6th... after I went out with fujuan. In fact going out with her was rather...hmmm...nice? I dunno wad's the word to describe...feels as thou we're back to our secondary school days...just me and her, but always happie to just have each other ard. =)
We talked quite alot...me abt clubbing and her abt her school stuff... even thou not much, in fact would have wished we had more time, I was very touched when she said she wanted to celebrate with me even thou she was broke. and not only tt, she gave me this card and it was really all the heart warming words inside that touched me...that mattered...not whether I get a treat, not whether I get my gift...hmmm...din realise that when u love the person, alot of materialistic things don't matter that much than words...yea words...
12 midnight...quite a few ppl wished me happie birthday. angie was unexpected... but thankful tt u remembered... the thing with me is tt I treat my birthday as sth very impt...but of course if ppl dun rem I also won't say anything, but I'll be super touched if u do... then when I least expect...my first surprise came: mr j wished me happie birthday...was happie for 5 mins and shocked until I dunno wad to say. then of course he just said he was going to sleep and that was it. Aiya...honestly, I'm already sick of all his atittude...guess all along he was out to play me...and now he's already bored of all this. For the 100th time, I kept saying I going to give up...but now I made my final decision to stop. If he doesn't do anything, I shall let him live his life... 'coz I realised before tt, his response towards me also was cold: dun wan to reply me... then I wasn't exactly very happie already after the 5 mins.
On the day itsef...7th March. Was the most upsetting day... can't believe I have to go thru such torture on my 20th b'day. In the morning was nagged by my mum to wake up, no one turned up at the mrt station, got lotsa work to do, esp this colleague that wants to scold me..argh...cannot be bothered...then had serious stomache and diahorrea, the usual already. Then met my mum at mrt station after work, also no one was there... mum made me wait 20 mins, that was fine...but she wanted to tell me my brother was coming along also...then I was like shit lar... the last time we had to celebrate his or my mum's birthday we quarreled until I just wanted to leave man... so was quite pissed...then later have to hear her talk abt family matters...I was just like 'can u spare me today on my birthday?' later met my brother also a bit pissed. Just then my 2nd surprise came: some unknown number messaged me and wished me happie
birthday...'who are u', i replied... then called an unknown number... RACHEL!!! so excited and happie she called back lor... managed to talk to her for a while... then in the midst we already reached shaw towers and was at the third floor...thot it was the right restaurant to be eating...but duh?! in the end was the wrong one...Nevertheless the food was not bad and did get to enjoy myself after all... with my brother and mum... took photos... But after that my stupid brother just wanted to go home. So he just came for the meal? Haiz. Sad lar... then my mum just wanted to go this place collect her products and we did a lil' shopping but nuthing I wanted and she just did her own shopping...er...okies lor. But had this fren I just knew and he actually kinda hinted he(brandon) got me sth!!! so happie...3rd surprise. She den decided to treat me ice cream...I wanted to meet up with this fren but he din reply me coz he was still working...the eating ice cream was bad really. Duno why, just felt like crying... then my mum finished her ice cream first, went toilet... was alone... even more depressed. On the way home on mrt, nothing to say to her, she had nothing to say to me either. Was upset that I have to be like this... listened to radio.. sappy songs... at my mrt stop, which i'm going home alone coz my mum going tampines to settle some of our hse matters... played 'u're beautfiul'...oh crap. Just teared... then on my way home leh...aiya...open tap... luckily got brandon and shawn talk with me online then felt better...=) thanks man.cannot remember was it this night...but got a chance to talk to qy...oh man. It's been ages! so glad that I still matter so much to u and u matter to me too... hope u're really doing fine there and I think u should have grown up quite a lot...domestic godness yea~ last time only know how to fry egg and cook instant noodles... hahaha. thanks for always being there.
Next day on wednesday was also happie...had 2 secondary sch frens...zong neng and weixiang celrbrate with me at this hong kong cafe. Haven't been contact with them until now!!! was our second outing and clement couldn't make it... was interesting hearing them talk abt army and all the cock-up stuff...hahaha...we shared food and it was quite nice. Really enjoyable with them coz they have been really my few close guy friend
s tt know me quite well... and wx got all of us mini cakes!!! My first b'day cake to eat...yum yum!!! had the chocolate one... wx took the mango and zong neng had the tiramisu...=P
Thursday went out with cy, yanning and huilin... well was just sharing and nuthing much...but still felt blessed to hear about their lives...and I know cy really did care for me and my b'day even thou nuthing much special was done, but I truly appreciate ur b'day sms!
Friday was well...most heart warming to have my cell celebrate for me and joy... thou we only had dinner at big 'O' and the food wasn't that nice exactly...but we really had a heart-to-heart sharing and opening to things. Thankful for the prayer that angie did for me n joy. And I know my sisters are truly concerned abt me. Got shawn to send them home then we went to this place to see aeroplanes... was really nice there. just tanquility. the stars there are clear...just that too many ppl were there... h
ad a nice chat with him thou... realised tt we have quite some common life experiences yea~ poly life, maths, working at restaurants...well, just got to know him a lil' more...so he ain't so quiet. and quite nice also to send my cell mates back. hmmm...but I still think I duno wad kind of person exactly he is...just think that he is so 'rachel-like'... uh... dun get me to explain this part... a bit too hard for now. haha.Overall just glad this week was really blessed with frens. that it fufiled my purpose of just wanting to spend time with them. =) final report and presentation coming soon. Should be quite stressed I guess... Keep me in prayers k?
charon