hey... haha make it clear here... so tat i won't need to explain... anyway ytd i just collected all the past stuff i had (that had memories of him) and returned him back.

ok the past boy living in the same hall as me. i finally walked over our moments. because i could no longer tolerate a human... being dishonest in relationships. one moment, i saw him with the gf, the next day, i see him intimate with another girl. he's lying to 2 "hers" and on top, making me realise he was lying to me when he told me he loved me and wad about his problems with his gf? even if there was an underlying fact... if he din like his gf, he should fight for his own love. but no. he conveniently places himself in a position pitiful. and i loved him too much... to overlook everything but i woke up le.

especially that day, i saw him at the lift... after i saw he was so close to the girl during the elective. it was that time i aksed myself why he can spend a semester with her but we only lasted 2 weeks. and when i saw him at the waiting area, my heart was beating incredibly fast. it was as thou i've never felt so alive before. yet i chose to forget him. because how am i to face a person who once bought over all my love... yet to realise it was nothing to him. i cannot tolerate anymore. i really really hate his behaviour. yet i dun deny my feelings for him.

i remembered long ago, the only person i really hated... at least when u were around, was my dad... the sight irks me. yet there were times he realised he's wrong and he treat me well. and it was in short periods where me and my dad's relationship got good and bad. i've never met anyone since that i hate and cannot forgive his behaviour. until now it's him.

when we were young.
remembered how we will always remember what our parents promised us they will bring us to the zoo or something... and we will hold on so ever tightly to promises as such... and if they forget or dun fufil... we'll throw tantrums and feel upset... and we'll always bear the scar, remembering what they did... not honouring their promises. in fact some of these hurts grow up with us. cause we're unable to let go of the so-called liar in our lives.

i think it was fortunate of me my parents treated me well. but this guy over here reminded me how child-like i was in this aspect. i can't let go of the pain... so i must forget. and for once, i'm going to an extend beyond me.

seriously now. i just hope he wakes up. be true to someone for once. is all i wish. it's not me being "sacrificed" in this that matter. thou i really find it hard to mend myself.