I got pricked in the eye. Saw a secondary school couple kissing on the escalator. I didn't think I was jealous. I was worried. I don't know if she would end up like me. I cannot see the goodness of any relationship.
And I remembered, I used to think (my friends too) that in a relationship how could a girl be the one that loses more? Whether is losing the virginity or not... the girl also won't be the ONLY ONE losing out. Haha…that was fooooooolish. Going to a relationship is like going to a gambling den: The girl has some chips as stake and the guy has some too to bet for a game (which supposedly is the relationship) But what I hadn't realized: Initially, the girl has already lesser chips to stake on the game. And she will always give it all. As for the guy, he will always win the game. Why? He can give the same amount as the girl -- "give it all", but he will still have some chips left for another game. Or even more unfortunately, he can give lesser than that. Then the girl loses completely, totally.
Innocence is often too believable and yet too devilish for you to fathom.
Lessons lived makes one become like bitter chocolate. Appealing in the outside but doesn't taste that good at all. Sorry to all dark chocolate lovers here!
Thought of some love equations:
Love is a partially irreversible equation
Love « Hate (leads to and also vice versa...the sign can't come out =( )
(of course comes with side products like jealousy...)
More often than not, once love leads to hate it can’t be reversed. Of course there are times when miracles happen, people work out things. But then...yup. So what about some un-reacted love? Used for the next batch or cycle in hope of reacting to form better things such as happiness and well...I don't really know already. Things that seemed to be obvious to me aren't so obvious anymore. I need to ask God.
"But one life lived is not as exciting as having two lives lived together."
charon