goodness... been working recently that i din even haf time to blog.
many things happened. most significant to church and guys.
i finally went for sat service! it was quite okay actually... just tt i felt awkward...
talked to callma on friday's cell. YES, i am a confused gurl. my life is pretty messed up.
YES, i am going to do something abt it. YES, i need time to think.
maybe something i can do it thank god. Yitinn even spoke to me ytd...
guys... one word: turntables.
as if i haven't got enuff from liking one guy after another... and finally learnt my lesson. i got pestered. and sorrie i ain't trying to show off at all. it's been bothering. it makes me even harder to understand why i can't be with the guy(s) i like. apparently i dun even know it's one or wad coz they keep changing their attitudes towards me.
i finally realised i've been dur dur dur...dumb! but never mind... like aviril's song:
u look like a fool to me...
din know u are also tt kind of guy tt just fall for another gurl here and there.
yup. the chapter truly ends here.
this one at work reminds me of u... but i guess he's nice. and i guess he's sincere. maybe we'll talk someday.
something traumatising happened to. sometimes i think if i forget the thot "guys are jerks", i'm being too lenient to alot out there... but i'm reminded not to be bias arh.... goodness naive me.
i do miss another thou. i am truly happie we are going to meet. and ur sincerity towards this frenship nowadays... seems like after asking "why u take me for granted?" really helps. i mean i din delibrately do tt... but yah. i expect a lot... but only 'coz i wanted to give a lot.
okies contentment, contentment. all fo sudden reminded of nic.
life is a balance of contentment and ambition.
true, true...
want to work, want to earn, want to discipline and live properly, want to see love in a most amazing way in this dying no-hope.
charon