" look at yourself, and what u haf become..."
wad u wan is wad u won't get. wad u get ultimately seems like not wad u wanted initially.
talking to nic as we shopped ytd. apparently, i start to understand him as a person. and i know things as such of "love" is not worth mentioning;
my analogy, sth like watching tv:
you get attracted to the programme, stay there for a few hrs, finish le, walk away and asked urself wad u were doing just now or would have been better doing.
i am honestly just irritated with myself now. because i caused myself to land in such a state again. i need to get off this itch la. but then...
rain le. for each time. someone's crying. dun wan to cry again.