i'm f-ing in a bad mood now. i dunno, one thing is i went to read back on my ex's blog... which apparently is the dumbest thing on earth to do... so it will piss u no matter how calm u try to be. of course, i know he's definitely in bliss with that J gurl... (not that i'm jealous. i never felt the need to, amazingly... 'coz i got all his "first" after all, and she's not pretty! and of course learning to be/survive alone after all that i've gone thru... i know i'm definitely stronger than him and happier to start off with my prime years!)
just that, now i'm trapped (read previous), it really made me think again of wad i'm insisting now is rite. i guess i'll still take it rite. nic and pam's life alr told me so, u dun need a r/s to survive.
haha. oooops. another analogy came-- germination. plants i am referring to.
when the weak and young plants... u thot they need sunlight to survive... or they will just wither. but during germination, if u still rem ur sciences, they actually grow in the dark.
black out for this period, brought the best of their surviving skills. hees.
anyway, "J"- the never ending traumas of my life.
gurl's name with J... "tears" my life only.
guy leh... 'coz of him, my life was swirled like beaten eggs... mus be been pretty rotten eggs to start wif... lolz. goodness it's a different mix now.
of course i wouldn't say everyone i've met with names starting with J are bad. 'coz in fact i've met up with a nice fren, Jolene! hees. she's realli nice and cute... i like her! not tt i'm les... but she really is cute! and we clique well! haven't been having a new fren for long... gal one especially. tt's why i'm so excited ba.
anyway, after venting... bad mood -> good mood le... today DnD mah... how can dwell in something so not worth it leh!
like if i mentioned and only dearie pam rems... para//el lines never meet! so why bother?
charon