i have to climb up the stairs all the way to 4th floor in hall everyday. i always want to climb up fast coz it will get more and more tired as u go higher. it drags u down.
life is like that ba. i am reminded of the bastards that came into my life not too long ago. or ppl who walked in and out of my life... they just all came back tgt that day. and they can pretend as thou nothing happen. it's just amazing but that's another story on it's own.
it's just a vicious cycle.
then my frens in school. after sk left. wah it's a whole load of problems within the clique. who don't like who and blah...
and of coz pam's happie with her life. but we do take on different phases in life that i have to keep up with... another stairs to climb.
shan's problems are worrying. and it's times our differences grow so huge, i dunno wad to do.
i miss cy and qy. maybe's it's coz they understand me the most and we think alike.
but i really hope i dun give cy the feeling i'm exploiting her coz i do care abt her life also.
even the best things in life are not prefect.
pressure to work coz no money. mum nags, why u still wanna stay in hall. sigh.
love is not love. as i see more abt this boy i loved quite a bit... his past, his present, and knowing his future. too many things i dun understand. of coz i dun try anymore.
but i'm still reminded of him often. OFTEN.
at times it's sweet single times, times alone.
at times, just hoping someone will be around.
i don't really understand myself.
it's just climbing up stairs. maybe i'll always see a better view one level up. =)
life is all abt experiencing.
charon