i'm really sorry dears that u have to read this thru over and over again.
but i mus first thank all of u guys. caiying, fujuan, shan shan, shiling, siew keng. all of u guys are my pillar of support. less of than one of u and i will collapse literally. qiying there is so much i wan to tell u... probably will send u a private mail to explain.
i guessed i tried a lot of resorts. trying to forget, to hate, to talk abt it, to think of ... it's not tt i dun realise the ppl ard me tt really care abt me.
juan just asked. what is it tt made me cry.
not the fact u alr left and won't come back,
not even the disappointing choice u made,
but the past.
i blame my super photographic memory.
dream abt u. also more than a few times alr i guessed.
like the song in cai hong tian tang, i really have no idea where to go.
really really hope that i can find cai hong tian tang, even if it is imaginary. because xinfu is there, because forever is there, because love is there.
but waking up every morning is wad i dread most. why am i still here? and reality greets u good morning.
opening the door is another torture. anticipation kills.
wad else. sometimes i look at myself and really cannot believe i would turn out like tt.
is it worth it? my answer is never no. yes, maybe, dunno....
zhou bu chu, you zhou bu hui. ye xu zhan zai yuan di de, zhi shi wo. dan wo hai shi...
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