yah... sometimes u cheat ur way thru. thinking tt oh... maybe won't really end up staying tgt, maybe not meant to be, maybe he doesn't love u anymore, maybe he forgotten everything, maybe it was an illusion after all.
and as ur brain formulates good excuses, ur heart cooperates and gives way.
don't get me wrong. there is nothing bad abt tt. perhaps is the way most ppl get pain out of their necks... those lasting pains.
i dreamt abt him, again. i dunno is 5th or 6th time. as though now my everyday, i still see him and live with him. point is, my dreams ain't self formulated. i can definitely tell u... 'coz usually they are short and dun tell much. but i'll always rem seeing him in my dream. which brings absolute riddiculity. i never much dream of any other person so often before. not my parents, not any of my ex bf, not even myself ( i dun see myself in my dreams...).
so it is. denial. is it? i'm only giving comfort. i dun need to be overly happy.
standing on different ends of the world i think. (this is much half fact, half formulated)
i'm hesitant.
if i was right in being wrong, i should be wrong in being right now.
but being right makes all of us live in a better position, ain't it?
open ur eyes and see... see "forever".
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charon