how wonderful life is. when u're in this world.
then again. in the midst of studying so far, i feel like i am draggin myself to this. but after all, it's my choice and i really for once want to complete this with wad i can.
but my soul has never least desired to be wad i wanted to do.
it has somehow always been a disappointment in my life that i have never been able to master something in my life... counting the things i knew... or learnt.
swimming, abacus, guitar, harmonica, hockey, german, bridge, cooking, painting. none of which i even reached a stage i wanted, not even mentioned proud of.
sigh. at some point of time i wished i din even try to learn. then i wouldn't have been so demoralised.
but i realised u really need to dream to live. yah... and this intense desire is back.
so many things that i want to do in my 20s.
i wan to run a marathon.
i wan to make my own dress.
i wan to bake a cake.
i wan to cook really good food.
i wan to paint.
i wan to continue my linguistics education.
i wan to enter a marketing competition.
i wan to travel and see the world.
i wan a time and space i can be alone and read what's around, and in me.
i wan to be good at something. and do it to the end and be remembered for it.
and now. i really wan a watch. i wan to see sunset with my dearest. i wan to eat dinner with my mum. i wan to rest. i wan to get a camera and snap so many shots. i wan to run.
all the big thots in the small brain. good nite.