haiz. was reading cy, ur blog just now. duno why. after that a bit sad. 'coz of the 3 doors down song? duno leh... upset 'coz I duno how to help u ba. I am always agitated or more really, in agony when I see tt I cannot help my frens...

cy: wish that ur happiness is not far away, wish that ur love for many things will be bolder.

why am I not thinking so much? abt life? is it good?

anyways....ytd, shulin was the problem again. not bad arh.... has been the pain in my neck for 3 yrs already. person tt always never fail to piss me off, yet person that I always feel guilty towards for like displaying my full array of hurting words, and person tt probably in my life at many times, tried to be friendly and tried to love. love and hate into a blender...like oil and water, never mixes. perhaps why i struggled so long and still here. really hope she can be more reasonable leh...and why must koh guan be her chu qi tong... haiz. feel so sorry for him, feel so guilty tt we got him into such a mess.... gossip again. gossip is a sin I always find myself associated with...lost my sensitiveness towards this again. shit.

so I do realise I need you, God. Can't believe I can mess up for pass 3 or more mths thinking I can make it on my own or even for the rest of my life. wad rubbish.

and ytd talking to shawn. haiz. was supposed to tell him abt mr j to dun wan 2 be dishonest to him... but ended up realising I can say sth else. it's so hard to be hiding something from someone.

hmmm... reminded me of tt time I hide stuff from my cell mates... luckily it is over. thank you guys for luving me sooo much. angie and peiwen. this is all I can do...I luv u guys.


Conclusion: oh and I am reminded of the time spent with shi ling ytd...was so short...yet everytime I see her, we have so mnay things to talk abt, she has so much care and concern abt me, I always feel that warmth and familiarity when we see each other. had a great time. meet again ya~

okies...conclude: really lurve all these frens...and yah yah...dear qi ying... duno how come (perhaps god knows...) we have come so far, but yep. I want to always be ther for u like how u are for me...not constant, but never away. I dun wan to take them for granted. never will. on my path to only few of u guys...taught me to love more and deep also. tt even thou I always find excitement in new friends...but u guys are never forgotten.. (plus dear juan also...)

oh oh oh...and dear dear rachel....I soo soo miss you lor. that day when I saw ur photo album and all those pictures... I only one step away from opening my tap. haiz...nowadays so easily...

okies. been listening to songs...if I could ever get into the stupid line for radio station... anyway, i surely will want to dedicate this song: stickwitu to all my frens... like the lyrics say:

Nobody's going to love me better
I must stick with you
Forever
Nobody's going to take me higher
I must stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I must to stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must to stick with you

And now
Ain't nothing else I can need
And nowI'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got you
We'll be making love endlessly (okies this part doesn't count...)
I'm with you
Baby, you're with me

So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's all that counts
So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us downI
know you and you know me
And that's why I say

yea...esp for words in bold ppl... and oh...wx, zn and clement. it's been great finding back u guys... like finding treasure of my heart... maybe the only few guys tt know me hardcore lor...hahaha.


yep yep... god leh. I really really like this song...I def wan to hear or sing it to my guy aka bf aka husband but anyway, now my love is You and I want to tell u this.


Always said
I would know where to find love
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough
But sometimes I just felt I could give up
But you came and you changed my whole world now
I'm somewhere I've never been before
Now I seeWhat love means

CHORUS:
It's so unbelievable
And I don't wanna let it go
Its something so beautiful
Flowin down like a waterfall
I feel like you've always been
Forever a part of me
And it's so unbelievable
To finally be in love
Somewhere I never thought I'd be

In my heart in my head it's so clear now
hold my hand you've got nothin' to fear now
I was lost and you've rescued me somehow
I'm alive I'm in love you complete me
And I've never been here before
Now I see
What love means

CHORUS

When I think of what I have
And this chance I nearly lost
I can't help but break down and cry
oooh yeah break down and cry

CHORUS
Now I see
What love means

Love love love... thank god, it's love ultimately, yes love ultimately, that makes the world go round, that is central to a man's soul.