arh... duno happie to back or not. going for tution in a while's time. before leaving, so unsure and lost. now back, still unsure. but at least wad i wanted to forget...i kind of forgotten i guessed. not that i din think, just tt i decided not to think anymore. kept insisting i'll be more independent there, and i will be an independent individual as i was, when i walked out of the airport.

well, i will be happie de. it was good i lost the phone, between these days of erasing memories...it helped. just took it as, it was a good dream... even the other, caring for me again... tat my subconscious dream... all hidden in a box somewhere where i will not open anymore. only if i need to be awaken.

already chosen to not listen to sappy songs... or rather, not be affected by it. but listening to guo min now...because, wo zhen de ting zai ai de guo min ji jie, er ni xiao shi de 100 tian, mei xiang lian, mei zhi jue...

anyway, abt the china trip! was really fun and enjoyable. carefree without those thots... and coz my mum was there for a trade fair, so i was left alone to do anything i wan in the day. which, i went to explore on my own the places to shop and just walk around and see the culture there. i like shanghai coz of the post war buildings preserved and used for various purposes such as banks or shopping malls... at least in the city area it strikes a different feel, or a contrast to the modernised skyrise buildings. and the jiang bian...night view was lovely, marvellous! can see the dong fang ming zhu and all the neon billboards and mega LCD screens... and i like the tu jia shao bing (like one big flat bread with seasoned minced meat on it) and mutton sticks there! yum...hot hot de in the cold weather.

but culture mah... dun like. i irritated by the toilets part... quite a lot in fact. thou now have doors, they also dun lock, then the sanitary pads... just throw into an open bin...then can see lor. not like singapore covered one, and at least i guess ppl do wrap in toilet paper before throwing... aiya just digusted. then somemore, come out le then wear pants properly... haiz.

another thing i noticed... the pedestrain (zebra) crossings there...which happen to appear on almost every junction... not like sg's one lor. in sg's one, it's the cars give way to ppl, but over there is ppl give way to cars... no use de the crossings...even at some traffic lights, the cars also dun exactly stop... nonsense la.

the salesgirls there also very cute... the ones at those wholesaler shops that i went to at qi pu jie... aiyo... u know rainie young's first album hairstyle? they all haf same hairstyle... and all the stripes, laces, nautical, preppy style clothings...all have there. happie coz i bought quite a variety of styles there...and all at cheap prices of below S$10...hahaha.

just tt seems like i haven gotten used to not shopping. now jobless also sian. haiz... shld quickly get a job to use up all these excessive time.