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i wish...
A time for everything. Letting Go. ♥
face up my fears
Donnerstag, November 09, 2006
cHaRoN posted at 11:12 PM

these few days been studying for my tests. i just study. just enough but not too hard. i get disappointed by my results. and esp math when i had to copy. truly had felt tt i really cannot cope with such kind of nonsense. why am i here? not tt i'm trying so hard to uphold integrity.

feeling very rotten.

i've been a very timid person. i easily get scared, panic and freaked out. once things i feel tt i am not 70% confident of, i shun. i always turn to someone when something scary happens to me. in a way, u can say i dunno how to protect myself. i used to be able to. guess that was just an outer shell i can't keep up with.

i know my life has numerous holes now.

i have no idea to mend them. i dunno is there even a need to mend these holes.

oh my results are not good. let it be.

my spiritual life is vaporised. oh i rem tt once in a while.

i'm very emotionally hurt. find a new guy? er... no need la. but move on? the end is tt question mark tt lingers.

then the being bullied part. i have no idea why am i always bullied by guys.
i only know i am defendless. as unbelieveable this is. that's the truth.

i always wanna run to comfort. some guy tt can really protect me. but then. now i also getting used to it. still getting traumatised, but guess ppl dun understand why i'm so fragile.

i'm afraid of many things.

hope wad's awaiting me is beautiful.