he decided to go back to his gf.
he decided to leave me.
i don't really think i can separate the difference between these 2 sentences.
the point is. my life overturned. (wo peng kui le)
never loved someone so deeply before.
resolved never ever to doubt every word u said.
such tt now. i cannot even go and try to tell myself u don't love me anymore.it's a past.
it's a past that i cannot walk out of. and i cannot see a future anymore. not a future between us. it's i can't see my future.
u showed me forever. i believed when i "saw".
ur life has alot of problems on it's own. i dun wan to ever make u even upset over one more thing i do.
ppl say things abt u. only i know.
the pictures we took. now became memories tt flash all the time in the head.
ur smile. and every moment we spent. i remembered. i remembered we wish time would stop for us.
u taught me stuff, scolded me, i saw ur good points, ur weak points, points gurls would fall for, points i myself like abt u.
never been so happy.
and never seen so much of u.
if i say i dun love u already, it's definitely a lie. and i can't bring myself to lie to u. haha.
if i say i could let u go. it's because i know u wanted to give her ur best. and because i never wanted to burden u by expecting something.
if i said i din miss u. everytime i think of the fact tt i won't see u again now, i will feel very upset. even the heart itself physically feels it.
if i say i can forget u. forever... even without u is forever. i can only apologise to my husband for not keeping 100% of my heart.
gari, i love u. i love u with every bit of wad i say and wad i do. if i cannot love u, is because i gave u everything i could. while i still can, i'll definitely make sure i will protect u and wish u happiness with her.
day and nite, i'm only thinking of cai hong tian tang.
don't want to talk anymore.
charon