i dreamt abt him again. even now. let's not go into details.
i saw him with the gurl the second time. cried again. guess it's just hard not to?
i'm becoming very very scared.
i think i really cannot take it.
how? really how? i never felt so lost in my life before. girls, i really dunno wad to do.
these days i start to hallucinate if all was ever real. insecurities is eating into me like mad.
i'm so weak that i can't take pain and fear.
my eye aleady infected from tt crying. but i'm still crying. if it's going to take my eyes. i also dunno wad to do.
do u realise the consequences of wad u are doing?
where is my corner of comfort? where?