i guess it's one of those days i feel confused. these few days when i go see u at IHG. it's great seeing u play bball again. after such a long time... thinking back when i saw u in secondary 3, it's really a kind of destiny to rem u and see u play again i suppose.
i just didn't dare to look into ur eyes again. maybe 'coz i'm really scared to find out the truth. but to know u noticed me is probably the next best thing tt day. 'coz the best was when u scored consecutively. i wished it was 'coz of me, but i guess not.
sigh. saw u at both the soccer match and the tennis courts. u always seemed happy with yx and robin and jh. maybe they really make u feel good. that's probably where i realise...
if u had met them first. maybe i would have became redundant.
ur life's pretty good to speak of now.
but i'm just laying in a corner.
i know man. i know.
i know i'm not expecting u to even do anything now.
sigh. but when jh just asked me abt my eye, i was equally shocked and upset.
why izzi that he can do something so simple tt u dun even notice.
my seniors can notice my msn nick.
when i see yx, he can say hello.
i want to talk. and i wish things would change.
and i guess it probably only would when the world has only me and you left.
but then again, i'm afraid it's all my imagination. juan says it looks proper as a fling come and go.
fuck. 'coz it's not.
when i saw ur clothes in the washing machine today, and when i took it out.
i knew it.
i know wad i am thinking.
like in a game. now i can only shout "pass!" ...
is there still a chance to talk on x'mas?